OK, this is really out there. But I tried something a little while back and it is working for me. It is a youtube video. I do it twice weekly and no urges. In fact, I don't even notice the VLTS anymore.
Cant say it will work forever, but I want to share it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8t7yPZrw4g
VLT ADDICTION
My gambling recovery blog.
Wednesday 16 September 2015
Thursday 30 October 2014
2014
It has been a while since I posted and the journey continues. Stopping gambling is still a steep battle I face daily. It is getting better....I will post some news from me in the coming days, so check back@
Wednesday 9 May 2012
Slippery Places
With any addiction , avoiding slippery places is a MUST. What is a slippery place ? A slippery place could be a variety of things, such as bars, casinos, or even certain people or situations. Perhaps carrying money is a slippery place. I know it is for myself. Often an addict will have some time in, and feel like it might be safe to visit the slippery place, and think that will power will avoid them from having a slip. For myself, just being in a place with gambling , get the juices going, and it is only a matter of time. I might not slip that day, but I got a smell of the cooking, and I am hungry !!
Avoid slippery places at all costs. Think of it this way; as a gambling addict, going to a lounge with a few VLT machines with someone, even though I don't gamble , could cost me thousands in the long run. Would you avoid a lounge, or make other plans if someone were to pay you $1000 to stay away ? I would stay at home and order in, or maybe go to a fancy steak house instead ! Slippery places have gotten me into trouble over and over again. I need to stay away.
Avoid slippery places at all costs. Think of it this way; as a gambling addict, going to a lounge with a few VLT machines with someone, even though I don't gamble , could cost me thousands in the long run. Would you avoid a lounge, or make other plans if someone were to pay you $1000 to stay away ? I would stay at home and order in, or maybe go to a fancy steak house instead ! Slippery places have gotten me into trouble over and over again. I need to stay away.
Thursday 3 May 2012
You don't have to quit just stop
I heard something really good the other day. You don't have to quit your addiction, you just have to stop doing it today. Don't worry about tomorrow , it isn't here yet. Give yourself a rest just for today.
Lets face it we LOVE the pleasure, we love the high even though it is very destructive for us. Sometimes it seems like a big hill to climb, to quit our favorite thing forever. So you don't have to ....just take a break for today. One day , at a time.
Tomorrow is a new day, you can always pick up where you left off.
Lets face it we LOVE the pleasure, we love the high even though it is very destructive for us. Sometimes it seems like a big hill to climb, to quit our favorite thing forever. So you don't have to ....just take a break for today. One day , at a time.
Tomorrow is a new day, you can always pick up where you left off.
Wednesday 8 February 2012
Why I need God
I want to share a little bit about my "faith" and why I believe what I do. God Willing , maybe someone will get something out of this. First of all, when you suffer with an addiction like myself, you need every kind of help you can get.
My walk with God started when I was young, I went to church with my grandparents. From a early age "God" was the only person I could "talk" to about my troubled family. Now any atheist would argue about "evidence" and to be honest I didn't have any at the time. It was "faith" in a higher power that helped me. Looking back my life was hell but at the time I didn't think so, because I had God on my side. Around 15-16 I started slipping away from God and started partying , having sex, and forgetting about the faith that got me through the garbage. By the time I turned 18 I was angry , and addicted to gambling. God went out the window for a number of years and he let me go my own way. Things didn't go so well. Ended up in jail 4 years later at 22 and found myself turning back to God. After reading my Bible ( not much else to do in jail ) and praying and listening to Christian radio, I got my faith back and all the past stuff went away. I was determined to have a fresh start.
So I got out of jail and started going to church. I met a nice woman , got married and had a child. Financial pressure from some bad financial decisions led me back to gambling. My marriage soon ended and I lost everything. I was again angry and threw God under the bus instead of trusting in him. You just can't ditch God when things don't go as planned, everything is his will.
Anyway, I have learned that in 34 years of living , I am the most miserable when I do not have faith and feel incomplete. When I am trusting in God , praying and believing I feel whole and happy, no matter what. Now atheists will still want "proof". I can't show you physical proof, I am sorry. But I have all the proof I need in how I feel in my heart. I need God to survive. Thy will be done. So why a Christian over a Muslim or Jew ? I believe we all follow one God and my beliefs are my own. I was raised in a Christian church and like the songs, traditions , etc. God is God, I don't believe he is that fussy. I just know I need him. God Bless and have a good day !
My walk with God started when I was young, I went to church with my grandparents. From a early age "God" was the only person I could "talk" to about my troubled family. Now any atheist would argue about "evidence" and to be honest I didn't have any at the time. It was "faith" in a higher power that helped me. Looking back my life was hell but at the time I didn't think so, because I had God on my side. Around 15-16 I started slipping away from God and started partying , having sex, and forgetting about the faith that got me through the garbage. By the time I turned 18 I was angry , and addicted to gambling. God went out the window for a number of years and he let me go my own way. Things didn't go so well. Ended up in jail 4 years later at 22 and found myself turning back to God. After reading my Bible ( not much else to do in jail ) and praying and listening to Christian radio, I got my faith back and all the past stuff went away. I was determined to have a fresh start.
So I got out of jail and started going to church. I met a nice woman , got married and had a child. Financial pressure from some bad financial decisions led me back to gambling. My marriage soon ended and I lost everything. I was again angry and threw God under the bus instead of trusting in him. You just can't ditch God when things don't go as planned, everything is his will.
Anyway, I have learned that in 34 years of living , I am the most miserable when I do not have faith and feel incomplete. When I am trusting in God , praying and believing I feel whole and happy, no matter what. Now atheists will still want "proof". I can't show you physical proof, I am sorry. But I have all the proof I need in how I feel in my heart. I need God to survive. Thy will be done. So why a Christian over a Muslim or Jew ? I believe we all follow one God and my beliefs are my own. I was raised in a Christian church and like the songs, traditions , etc. God is God, I don't believe he is that fussy. I just know I need him. God Bless and have a good day !
Taking it a day at a time
Today I had some money and was tempted to play the VLT's but willpower got me through it. One of the main reasons I gamble is because I feel I need to make money. Thank God today I didn't shove that $300 into a machine and put it towards bills. I rewarded myself with some diet pop.
I am confused about my purpose in life. I can't keep a job. I like exciting things. So many times I wanted to be a big shot gambler. Hanging out at the track, eating their awesome BLT's all day with a crown and coke in my hand, picking the ponies and playing the machines between races. Most of those guys there look like bums for a reason, they are broke. They are total junkie addicts. The track has their hooks in them.
I am starting to think maybe I need to spread the message about how bad gambling is and maybe help some people, but not sure where to start. I first need to make a living. Maybe that will develop in the coming months, who knows ? Anyway , I am just going to try and make a daily post here and keep myself on the ball.
I am confused about my purpose in life. I can't keep a job. I like exciting things. So many times I wanted to be a big shot gambler. Hanging out at the track, eating their awesome BLT's all day with a crown and coke in my hand, picking the ponies and playing the machines between races. Most of those guys there look like bums for a reason, they are broke. They are total junkie addicts. The track has their hooks in them.
I am starting to think maybe I need to spread the message about how bad gambling is and maybe help some people, but not sure where to start. I first need to make a living. Maybe that will develop in the coming months, who knows ? Anyway , I am just going to try and make a daily post here and keep myself on the ball.
Monday 30 January 2012
Welcome to my blog
This is the first post of this blog and I want to talk about my gambling addiction and what I am doing to stay healthy. This is part of my recovery. I will eventually go into my story , little bits at a time, but trust me; my life is a mess. I have really gotten myself into a pickle with gambling. Many times I have stopped and started working on recovery, but when I stop working my recovery program the problems come back and I slip into old habits
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